am feeling very nervous right now?
and i know why.
but i juz feel very edgy.... dat's it.
nothing to do with me r/s so dat's not so bad...
well... sano shld noe... but nvm haha...

wanted to start of the entry with a "BLARDI HELL!...........bla bla"
but guess i cooled dwn..
cos i came home earlier than i usually would?
about 10pm i was already home
and i took a bus 197, frm bugis to home and
as i was alighting, this stupid bitch
i'm not sure how old she is..
most prob juz a couple of years older than me?
yeah i was walkin infrnt of her and dwn the flight of steps to alight the bus
and woman got no eyes lor!
she stepped on the back of my slipper twice.
once on each leg somemore
and then as i stumble n trip and got myself standing properly,
she ended it off with another painful step on my left pinkie.
fucking pain k!
bitch!
smile and say sorry and walked away so fast.
at least like be worried and see if i'm ok?
cb...
i was standing there yelping lor... kaoz!

well although me n fred patched,
and he messaged me in the morning on msn,
we weren't supposed to meet till tuesday.
like.... time off to adjust.
but end up during my class halfway he smsed me and say he wanna come find me at bugis.
how to say... hm.... i enjoyed class today? and time passed real quickly.
soon, n two hours were gone.
i chatted quite abit with my classmate....
when i met up with wilfred after class..
i was alittle more not say shy..
juz at loss on wad i shld do?
and he say i behave as if we're on a first date.
well, dat didn't last very long anyway.
we..... talked alot todae.
and mebbe cos my temper was not in the way anymore?
i talked like a guy once in awhile and....
it's like a brand new feeling
that i seriously enjoyed alot.
it's one of the best days i've spent with wilfred.
it's like a .... not extremely adrenaline filled happy day
but more like a very contented kinda day?
i'm juz grateful that he realised some stuff and
i duno... it's kinda farnie seeing him luv sick abt me again
has been ages since something like this.
am glad things didn't turn sour and this be another case of prolonged tragedy.
improvements are shown and.. i am treasuring every moment of it.
wilfred and i talked alot
and he was commenting no wonder girls find guys very despicable
cos he himself can't understand why guys can't juz be totally faithful
why guys so easily tempted
hahah

i said things i would never imagine myself saying before...
talking and thinking in a way as if i've grown a couple of years older
i've seen more truth this time round?
and... i told him i can't forgive him for having me gone thro all the pain
cos of his rash decision
and he said it's onli right to not forgive him.
haha
ask me slap him somemore siao one.

oh well. things r over n.... i juz still need abit of time to adjust.
hope i can reallie fulfil the changes i promise to make.
am determinded this time
and he is surprised at my determination.